Everything was working out just as it should. Our dream house was about to become a reality. We had the perfect site to build on, a contractor, the house plans all worked out, and even the bank said we were good to go.
The only thing holding us back from moving forward was we needed to sell our current home. So we listed it for sale with hopeful expectations. We received phone call after phone call, a ridiculous amount of emails and messages, and let complete strangers walk-through our home all with the hopes that each time would be the last. That this couple, or this family, or that guy would be the one to put our waiting to an end and our dreams in motion.
But it didn’t sell; in fact, we never even received an offer. Despite all the interest shown, nothing ever came of any of it. I was devastated. With each new inquiry I would gain hope only to end up with a broken heart.
I begged and pleaded with God to send us the right buyer for our house, to get us moving in the right direction. If anyone knew or understood our situation, it was Him, right? He knew how quickly we were outgrowing our home and how l was struggling to make it work.
I didn’t understand how this could be happening. Had I completely misunderstood God? Was it not Him that had led us to this point? And now at the very end when I needed Him to make this happen, when I’m begging with Him to grant us this blessing, He just shut the whole thing down??? Total devastation. That’s the only way to sum it up. This lifelong dream that was so close to happening, to being a reality, it was gone.
I mourned. I grieved. I was angry. And I told God how I felt. One day in particular I was really firing off to God about how miserable I felt and he reminded me of Daniel 3:18. “And if not, He is still good.”
Yes, Lord. You are good. All the time. And regardless of my situation or struggle, I will praise you. I challenge you to examine your life, your situation and struggles. What are you desperately longing for that seems so out of reach? What is God trying to teach you during this season of waiting?